i pedaled my Peugeot as fast as it would go
Getting the wheels to out spin
the hamster in my head, heart, mind, body, soul
old habits kill my dreams
like swiss cheese holes
getting me to believe
all I want to be is a joke
take a deep breath of cannibus smoke
exhale
it feels like I've been impaled
by invisible forces
we joke the wicked witch and king kong
have come for me but be strong
when you lose your toolbox
and the doorframe's falling
Noone's calling you back
So you stay in bed
another day has passed
and you're only deeper in thought
deeper behind
losing more time
trying to find the light inside

and you can barely open your eyes

Where do you go
when you need someone to help you
and they send you away
tell you
you'll just have to wait
what do you do
when you need someone to talk to
and you're just trying to make it through another day

I'll collage
I'll paint
I'll bathe
I'll wait
I'll fake it till I make it
Though I'm tired of the waiting
I'll belly to the bare earth
I'll write affirmations
that uplift my self worth
and when it starts to hurt again
I'll do my best to phone a friend
I don't want my life to end
just the pain
Come over
lets reframe
set it all to fucking flames
wait...
better yet
lets play a game
write a song
ride our bikes
make the best
of this dark night
I now theres divine insight
if i could just take one step in front of the other
I will lean on you
like my sister brother
undercover
I've been struggling
now I need some snuggling
Can we please
lift the veil
stop hiding

Where do you go
when you need someone to help you
and they send you away
tell you
you'll just have to wait
what do you do
when you need someone to talk to
and
you're just trying to make it through another day